jumping moon

You only live once. You only love once. What do you do when that love is gone?

So what is this all about… seems like a virus to me.

What does marriage even mean these days? Nothing. People want to copy celebrities, be like khloe and lemar… or T.I n Tiny… ..what about be like a long lasting marriage like your grandparents or parents? Showing off the ring, the dress and the reception gives more satisfaction than preparing actual vows. Vows mean nothing these days. Divorces comes too easy. Marriage is too flimsy. It’s just like changing your status on facebook getting out of it with one click of the mouse. Marriage is just another form of a serious relationship that you can get out of in 2 years. It bothers me to see these 18 year old wives divorced at 21 because they were fucking around. It bothers me to see these young divorced men still paying for their baby mamas bills, their current baby momas bills may as well have several wives and show off how you can take care of them all. I don’t know how to feel about being a second wife neither. You will always be second. Especially if you dont have any kids. Your first child wouldnt be the same for him because he already has a child… Maybe I’m thinking too much. Marriage means nothing. Divorce is everywhere. Marriage is barely anywhere these days. I want a real marriage. I want us to make it work no matter what. I no my mom n dad married at like 18 but they at least tried for 13 years even when my father didnt deserve t. They never re-married, or had other kids. Its just me and my brother same mother same father. My mom always said don’t think so negatively on marriage just because my mom and dad didnt work out. Not all men are assholes she says. It’s just hard to believe in marriage when it means nothing these days.

Laundry Night. Your shirt. With that cologne still on it. Damn. I miss you already …

There must be more to it than this. Right?

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